For better or worse, but it's already paid for so I can't change it anyway, I went on Match.com. First I went back on POF for a little while, but I figure you get what you pay for....never mind that my last POF experience ended in a 4+ year relationship. But I am no longer in that relationship so I say again, you get what you pay for.
The last time I dated heavily, I loved it. I loved meeting new people, having dinner and drinks bought for me, and, worse case scenario, having a hysterical story to tell. But I have to say, right now, I'm just finding the process tedious and exhausting,...and I haven't even been on an actual date yet.
First of all, I'm certainly not as body confident as I was the last time around. I know body acceptance is trendy and attractive, but I'm having a real hard time faking it. I also don't have any patience for the online chatting. So much so that I just added this disclaimed to my profile.
"If we don't think our pictures are entirely unfortunate,
and we can prove that we can string to sentences together, let's get out an explore.
Worst case scenario, we're just not that into each other...
but at least we've gotten out of the house and maybe even made a new friend."
It might be a bit abrasive, but it's truthful right now. I'm also trying a new thing where I'm not the aggressive initiator. I don't know if that goes back to my dating anxiety or if its rooted in a confidence that I deserve to have a good man come on to me.
Who am I kidding?
Who am I kidding?
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